Goodness Gracious

      There is absolutely no point in having that as my title!  I just suck at titles so much, that that was all I could come up with!  Bleh, anyway..  Today I feel like describing my feelings with images today... We'll see how that goes!

    Lately I have been pent up with emotion and passion.  To get rid of it, I've had to make do with crying, lots and lots of crying.  Pretty stupid, yes, but I don't know what else to do!

 Actually, my conclusion is to distract myself with lots of Supernatural.  BUT- each darn episode is so long, it takes forever just to get through one season!  Not that there's a lot of .. interesting things in each episode, but still. At least there's a school break coming up... I'm sure I'll get them all done by the first of 2013.
       I've had a sailor's mouth recently, but this only really comes out when I'm absolutely raged (Which unfortunately happened several times today) or around a couple of friends.  I've been trying to put out this cuss storm but... Yeah, that's easier said than done.  I've realized, as much as I love winter... It's my downfall.  I get lonely, and it's pathetic.  I need school, or at least busy work, to plow through it easily.

  The peak of my day had become my physics class.  The people that sit around me are pretty bubbly- no, overly excitable is a better description- and it makes me feel great!  When the teacher's in a good mood (Which is most of the time), then class is AWESOME.

   ^Basically what I'm thinking during my teacher's stories.

 I guess I should go to sleep now.. I'm having too much fun with this..  My next post will probably be about disturbing health treatments.

[Mr. Post] Number One

    That last post was really whiny.  I apologize!  To make up for it, I'm going to do a Mr. post.  These Mr. posts are stories that one of my teachers has told in class.  He's really entertaining and he has all these weird life stories to tell.  I think they're funny... But I don't know if anyone else will think so..  Here goes!  (I call him "Mr." as to not give away his identity... Yes, it sounds a bit silly, but I don't know what else to call it.)
     Mr. told us that when he was in college, he had a rival.  There was a boy who would try to beat Mr.'s scores on tests and assignments, etc.  One time, a girl beat Mr.'s rival on a test, and almost scored higher than Mr.!  So, of course, he had to ask her out.  They went out for dinner, and he was curious about how she paid for college.  "So, do you pay for college with scholarships, or maybe you work?"  The girl looked a bit embarrassed.  "Well, actually, my family has a business that helps pay for my schooling.."  Mr. gave her an interested look.  "Oh really?  What's the business?"  "I don't think I can tell you... You won't like it."  "? Oh come one, tell me~!"  She took out some brochures from her bag, and set them on the table.  Mr. was a taken aback, and felt a bit insignificant.  The brochures were for a male stripper business.  "Wow."  At this point, Mr. knew that this wasn't going to work out, and lost intrest in her.  Nevertheless, he thought he might as well ask some questions.  "What do you do if the strippers misbehave?"  She leaned in close, "Take away their money!  They'll do ANYTHING for money!"  Needless to say, Mr. was a bit disturbed.   In class, he joked about searching for her online.  "I wonder where she is today?  I could just search "Oklahoma, Male Stripper family business.."  Someone responded, "I don't think you should search that here at school!  What would you say when they find out?"  "Ah..."

Musica

       Music- "The expression of feelings that you cannot describe with words."  This definition fits music perfectly to me.  There are so many feelings that I can't try to put into writing, but often music plays the part wonderfully.  It helps me feel detachment from the stresses of daily life and concentrate on other things.
   My taste is music varies more than I'd like to admit, and lately I've been listening to a lot of emotional instrumental music  throughout the day.  I've been feeling awfully strange lately, as I haven't been able to just feel happy continuously for sometime.  Sadness can be inspiring for artwork and writing, but I've realized that prolonged emotional upheaval is more painful and distracting than necessary.
     In the mornings I listen to some  Golden Sun music to jump start some happiness and nostalgia of simpler times.  Some songs I'd suggest would be Downton Abbey: The Suite, music by Joe Hisaishi (who composed the music for a lot of Hayao Miyazaki's films), such as Nausicaa Symphonic Poem- First Movement,  Howl's moving Castle- Cave of Mind, and Spirited Away -The Dragon Boy.  Those are just a few good examples.  Some others are EXE3- Tree of Life, Murray Gold- I am the Doctor, This is Gallifrey.  But some of the most epic music I've heard recently came on the 25th Anniversary CD with Skyward Sword.  That... music is absolutely incredible.  The rendition of Gerudo Valley almost seems to have been overdone with awesome.  Just thinking about it gives me chills!
 

Sunday. December 2012.

     Something about that title really... Irks me..  It's dull.  ANYWAY- It has been... an exceedingly looooong time since I've updated.  Kinda like facebook, I don't put too many statuses on there either..  *Cough* Well!  It's been so long, I've kinda forgotten what to write about...
    Supernatural- a good starting topic.  I've been watching this show lately, "Supernatural", because I'd heard it's good...and because of the main characters.  They're adorable. Here's some examples.. Dean (Jensen Ackles) and Sam (Jared Padalecki)  In fact, before I had actually started watching, I thought that Dean looked really pretty, and because of his prettiness, he would be this really sweet character..  WAS I EVER WRONG!  Hah, he's really gruff and tough.  Took me completely off guard. Before you start to think, "This show's probably just eye candy for women-" it's not.  There are plenty of good looking women in just about every episode, so... There's something for everybody!
     It's a pretty good show, and I'm only on season two.  Castiel, a character who apparently shows up at the end of season three, I have been awaiting for sometime.  A family member told me that Castiel was his favorite character, and I've been dying to see him in action!  But... I've got so many episodes until then.. TwT  Anyway, if you like suspenseful, dramatic, sometimes gruesome shows, you may like this one as well.  My last words on this will be... "DEAN!"  "SAMMY!"
   Things here in the "Ville"  have been okay too.  In the past two years, I've gotten more splendid friends than I ever thought possible.  It almost hurts to think about how much I'm going to miss all of them in the next year, and I'm already sad about some that I don't get to see very often.  I was folding some jeans at work this week, and I realized one of my biggest fears, besides bugs- being alone.  I like the occasional solitude, don't get me wrong, but the thought of being alone forever?  That terrifies me, chills me to the bone.  I'm praying now that I don't end up that way.
   

Pictures of Home

The title explains it all.

July First.

Yeah, I kinda just.....suck with titles. 
     So....I haven't posted in a while, like usual.  Things are going good...  I've got a new job, at a clothing store that just opened.  In fact, I helped put the store together.  It's also pretty nice, because all my fellow employees are new like me.  Most have been in retail for 5-20 years, unlike me, who only has Braum's fastfood as a reference.  And today was just my third day actually selling clothes.  I'm getting better, and more comfortable I think. 

   And...in the last month, I have went into a deep Avatar (The Last Airbender) phase.  It's really good.  The characters are pretty deep, and there's a lot of failing.  I like that. It's more realistic to how things really go.  I think most people fail a few times before they get it.  Oh, and of course Korra is really good too.  Both shows are very emotionally overwhelming.  Just too good.  And so I attached a drawing I made of General Iroh.  One of my favorite characters- even though I love just about everyone of them.

I've put a pause on my book...again.  I just need more inspiration on the plot.  The characters are still growing into their full potential.

Change.

Lots has passed.  I feel like with this upcoming year, I am leaving a lot behind.  One year left until college?  That's crazy!
     I got a new job.  It's at a clothing store that's opening at our mall here.  In fact, today was my last day at Braum's.  It's weird now, thinking it's over.  I.... may miss it, just a bit.  I made lots of friends, and unless I visit them at work, I doubt I'll ever see them again.  But...maybe because of that, I'm glad a left.  There was a certain part of me I got from it I'm glad to leave.
    I'm still working on my book.  I've changed it though, it's about demon's or something now,(Dunno if I said that in another post..) and I've been thinking about it none stop.  I'm already attached to my characters, and I haven't even started writing about them yet!  It's difficult for me to sit down and write, I feel as though I have to face a part of myself, if I really want to make a book, it will be final.  I don't know, I guess I'm just a bit  conflicted right now.
   Harvest Moon has been fun, been playing LOADS of that.  And I got married in the game...and now I don't know what to do anymore.  *sigh*
    Well, I'm gonna start writing more of that book, and I'll put up some later..