Change.

Lots has passed.  I feel like with this upcoming year, I am leaving a lot behind.  One year left until college?  That's crazy!
     I got a new job.  It's at a clothing store that's opening at our mall here.  In fact, today was my last day at Braum's.  It's weird now, thinking it's over.  I.... may miss it, just a bit.  I made lots of friends, and unless I visit them at work, I doubt I'll ever see them again.  But...maybe because of that, I'm glad a left.  There was a certain part of me I got from it I'm glad to leave.
    I'm still working on my book.  I've changed it though, it's about demon's or something now,(Dunno if I said that in another post..) and I've been thinking about it none stop.  I'm already attached to my characters, and I haven't even started writing about them yet!  It's difficult for me to sit down and write, I feel as though I have to face a part of myself, if I really want to make a book, it will be final.  I don't know, I guess I'm just a bit  conflicted right now.
   Harvest Moon has been fun, been playing LOADS of that.  And I got married in the game...and now I don't know what to do anymore.  *sigh*
    Well, I'm gonna start writing more of that book, and I'll put up some later..

  

September 14th, 2011

I have been decyphering myself once again.  And thinking none stop.  I've have come across a few things in found though provoking...
What is the definition of a human?  We see in many different works, that aliens come to destroy, but let us live, because they come to understand our 'humaness' or something.  They learn emotion.  I often think that without our emotions, we wouldn't be human.  We have both good and evil in our souls, and we choose how to use it.  Of course, this is no new information, as I have heard it many times, but I still am curious on the true definition of humanity.  What are we really?  And our souls?  They have so much to do with us....I just want to know...
I realized that I choose to be depressed, because I refuse to hold hope.  If I have hope in something, I am most likely to get crushed, and that hope makes it all the more painful.  So being a pessimist is just a better option on somethings for me.  Mainly, relationships.  Which I also view different than most people.  I have a habit of loving people now.  Even if I'm not close to them, i love them.  They mean a lot to me.  And I've also realized that it causes me to have the permanent pain of heart break.  I hope I can learn differently...


Oh and I've really into Golden sun and doctor who again...  I just have this strong temptation to scream "DOCTOR!!!"  at random...