Whhhyyyyyy?!?

Soooo, it's exactly as the title says.*sigh*
And now for my Skyward Sword review....
Absolutely gorgeous, but (spoilers ahead!)
those stupid trials stressed me out, and the desert was also quite traumatizing. But, I loved Skyloft and its civilians.. Basically, the art and beauty makes up for its faults. Would I play the game again anytime soon? NO. Unless I'm just lollygagging or slicing butterflies with my sword. Or blowing birds off sidewalks. Ahem.

September 14th, 2011

I have been decyphering myself once again.  And thinking none stop.  I've have come across a few things in found though provoking...
What is the definition of a human?  We see in many different works, that aliens come to destroy, but let us live, because they come to understand our 'humaness' or something.  They learn emotion.  I often think that without our emotions, we wouldn't be human.  We have both good and evil in our souls, and we choose how to use it.  Of course, this is no new information, as I have heard it many times, but I still am curious on the true definition of humanity.  What are we really?  And our souls?  They have so much to do with us....I just want to know...
I realized that I choose to be depressed, because I refuse to hold hope.  If I have hope in something, I am most likely to get crushed, and that hope makes it all the more painful.  So being a pessimist is just a better option on somethings for me.  Mainly, relationships.  Which I also view different than most people.  I have a habit of loving people now.  Even if I'm not close to them, i love them.  They mean a lot to me.  And I've also realized that it causes me to have the permanent pain of heart break.  I hope I can learn differently...


Oh and I've really into Golden sun and doctor who again...  I just have this strong temptation to scream "DOCTOR!!!"  at random...

August 29, 2011

........Okay, so I haven't been writing much that's productive, and I'm probably not going to right now again. 
Schools started.  That's pretty nice, I guess, since I get to see my friends, even if my feelings get involved and cause more problems.  I've been taking st. John wort, but I just can't seem to cheer up right now.  It's worrisome.  And, I guess my last post was too harsh.  I haven't lashed out like that for at least a year. 
I really wish I could turn the clockback right now.  And live through somethings again.  Or at least try to mend them.  *sigh* whatever...  I need the sun to come out!  It would help my mood.  Gahh, i'm just complaining again, aren't i?  Poo.  Well, I'll try to find something interesting and post about it next time...



GOLDEN SUN FTW!!!

Nalg- I mean...Hello...

I worked late last night, and I decided to go to bed kinda earlier, *cough* 10:56 *cough*....for me this is early anyhow.  i slept at this time because I work today at nine and i wanted to get some need rest...WELL....that's kinda funny, because I had this awful nightmare today....I would write it down, but it would take to long, but I'll just say this....  I can still feel the man's finger on my temple, feeling my pulse before he kills me..  Anyway, i'm still NOT ready for school, and I really need to read that book for my english class.   But procrastination is just sooo tempting. 
I have learned my lesson.  There are a bunch of nasty perverts in this world, and I will try my best to avoid them.  They seem normal at first, then they decide to say some random, vulgar thing to test the grounds for more nasty comments.  This just happened to me, and, of course, I took action.  I don't put  up with crap like that.  No way in hell.  And I feel stalked too.  and I know he'll read this post.  Because his location showed up in my statistics today, that he's seen this page 12 times today or something.  all i can say is....LEAVE ME  ALONE!  Anyway, with people like this, ditch 'em.  In as many ways as possible.
*sigh*  
I got some new glasses, they are very square...and you know what?  No new naruto or bleach chapters this  week.  It's got me sooo down...  RUKKIIAAAAAAAAA!!!  *sob* 
In bleach, most of the characters are REALLY tall....it's lovely.  They make the world go 'round.

AHHHH!

I just can't take it!  S-schools closing in on me...and I'm entirely not ready!  I haven't read my book for english, and I'm sooo afraid of Chem.   And then, there's my fellow students...it's almost intimidating to see them after so long...
I had a boyfriend kinda this summer...it ended really bad.  It was online, something I don't recommend, because he lived so far away.
There's this guy at work I like, and it seems like he likes me, but I'm just not sure..and since I work parttime on random days, I don't work with him much.  Gahhhhhh....  I'm trying not to get my hopes up.
And of course, since schools starting again, and this results in me breaking out.  Bad. 
But, i must think positive!  Maybe I'll get a boyfriend this year, at school....that would make me happy..

SPOILER:  Rukia's BAAAACCKKKK!!!  I'm soo happy!  Shinigami goodness is sure to be on it's way!                                                                                                             

.....Hmmm..

I guess I should be updating...  Where to start? 
In June, my family and I went to vacation in Orlando.  The turbulence made my mom and I feel pretty sick..in fact, as we were landing, I had to breath into a bag to keep from getting sick.  I gagged a bit, but nothing happened thankfully.. I've made some new friends this summer from other countries, and actually made some friends at work too.  Yes, I've started working...at Braums, which is a ice cream shop usually filled with older folks.  (Did I just use the word... folks?  *shiver*)  Most of my co-workers are kinda weird, and recently I found out one likes me and that disturbes me even more.  He is SO not my type..  But, still they're some nice people there, and most of the customers are very nice.MOST of them..  I take st. John's wort (a natural medicine) to keep my mood positive.  It works well too.  I'm still in a megaman obsessive phase, which is good, because..well, it's hard to explain, but it gives me a good mind set to start school with. 
I really love sunsets.  I water my neighbors plants every night, and I get to see it most of the time.  I'm not sure if I'm ready for fall yet, the change in how everything looks, and feels, and the different emotions I get from it... 
I still have some more art to post.  Hopefully I can do that tomorrow.


Naruto's getting a bit better now.  I can't wait to see what that crow itachi gave him does...

Wowzers..(I think that's how it's spelled..) I'm updating!!! :D

So~!  School is over!  OMGOSH!  To be honest, I wasn't very excited about it.  I miss my friends.  Oh well. 
I go on vacation to Florida this week!  I'm so excited, i get to see my family members who live there.  We don't see them very often. 
I've finally turned 16 (Hooray) and now can get a job.  I've already sent out some applications.  Hopefully I can make some good moolah.  
Recently..  I've really gotten into megaman again, specifically Star Force.  Last year, at this exact time, I got two "official work books" for Star Force and Battle Network, each one about 40 bucks apiece, and entirely in Japanese which I cannot read.  But now-to my most utter dismay, they...are selling them in English!  *cries*  for an average of, like, 25 dollars!....And now, I'm trying to sell my books in order to buy the english ones.  Wish me luck.

I'm going to attach some art here.  I've got more, and I'll post that later.

It's been so long..

Since I've posted ANYTHING~~  In fact, I had to try about 10 times to log in.  It was terrible.  Ah, lent is over, and I am a meat eater once again.  yum.  School ends in 9(school)days, and I honestly don't think I'm ready.  We finished our STATE testing, but....now we get to be preparing for...finals--...yay...  I've been playing a lot of video games lately.  Well, not really, since I've been on the same one for about 2 weeks now, but I haven't played in a long time.  Life is not a roller  coaster..but an elevator.  It can go up, down, and stay there.  Which it has been doing of a lot of lately. 
Our school year books have come out, and in the student picture listing, they left out a lot of people.  So, now a lot of students are pretty PO'd.  I made some art in, wait for it, art class, and I'll have to put it on the next time I post, which I will try to make soon.  I learned recently, that you shouldn't place too much trust in people.  They tend to let you down.
I'm thinking of righting a book.  The main character is named Maya(I might spell it as Maia later), and I'm having a hard time coming up with a starting plot.  It's been changing a lot.  She has a water affinity.  Maybe I'll post a scene from it later on.
well, I'll try to see if anything interesting happens soon.  And I'll post it....yeah. 


Slight spoiler alert to Naruto..

And, by the way...CAPCOM NEEDS TO MAKE ANOTHER STAR FORCE GAME.  AND MASASHI BETTER HAVE A GOOD REASON TO HAVE LET NARUTO OUT SO SOON IN THE WAR...

Like a Vegan

Well, at least until Easter.  Our family was going to eat steak on Sunday, but I'm afraid I might get sick.  I had planned to write, like, 5 weeks ago..but I got distracted.  I was  really happy then, I had decided that I would live a happy life, by being happy.  And, now..I don't think so.  That happiness has been drained away.  But, that's okay.  Maybe meat will bring happier things.  I had read that veganism can lead to depression. So, yeah.  I'll try too write right after easter.  So, until then... HAPPY EASTER!!

I am very dissapoint.

I...am very distraught.  It's spring break, I haven't fully recovered from the cramming and testing from last week,(especially from Chemistry...)  and today is Friday.  I don't have much time left.  Sorry, I guess I shouldn't be complaining.  I should be happy that I have a spring break, and a home.  And family....anyway-
I took a trip with my family, to Tulsa, and it was pretty fun.  I went swimming, that was enjoyable!, and we stayed in a hotel.  It would have been nice, if sleeping wasn't so hard.  Man, I just keep complaining!  I'll stop writing now, and wait until something interesting happens. 


(Sidestory-the missing swimsuit.)  There was this swimsuit that I really liked, a black one piece, and I hadn't been able to find it!  I'd looked and looked, countless times, but I hadn't been able to find it for about a year now.  I wanted to wear it when I went swimming in Tulsa, but Since it wasn't there, I had no such luck.  Then, today, I noticed a black piece of clothing on the floor.  I picked it up, only to realize it was the swimsuit I had been looking for!  I had been using it to cover the hole on the bottom of my window, that wasn't covered by the blinds.

Meh braces have been removed.

I got my braces off today.  At 8 am.  It was interesting, but I didn't like it when they scraped off the cement. But, as I was leaving, they gave me a bag of candy, the things I was "unable" to eat with my braces. (And yet, last week I ate a huge bag of skittles...oops)  They won my heart at that moment, I felt so loved.  They had no other patients when I was there. 
I had to return to school at 9 am, and was there for another 2 hours.  I had another appointment at 11, so my mom came to get me out.  We went up to my locker so I could get my stuff.  As we got to the top of the staircase, a boy walks out of a classroom as waves to my mom, then walks into the bathroom.  We walk over to my locker, then hear this horrible retching sound, three different times.   It was the boy, who had just waved to my mom, who was vomiting.  It was nasty.  End of story.

And how could I forget....the winter dance.

I don't like this time of year.   In February, we, well, they have a winter dance for our school.  I get to listen to people talk about how so-and-so asked them to the dance, or how they have 3 different people that have asked, but for some reason, they' prefer going solo.   Do they realize what they've got?   Or is it me, wondering what it is about them that makes so many guys love them.  Perhaps I will never know, and never have that, or anything like it myself.  I just sit on the side, listening and watching my friends steal each others bfs and create awkward triangles.  Maybe I'll just take my welded armor, and wait for March to come.  Spring Break. Yay. 

sorry.  I had to rant about it.  It passes over my head.

SNOW...in the city(town)

Well....I haven't written in a while....I...don't even remember much that has happened, but, I'll try my best.
At my school, we had some sort of- gathering, thing in one of our gyms, and it had all these different stands advertising for different classes this school offered.  One was cosmetology.   They had colored hair strands that attach to your hair.  I got a blue one.  Another stand had welding, and that was interesting.  Couldn't tell what I was doing, but I got to wear a helmet.
I started a college government class.  At first I was afraid.  But, I still kind of am, because it's almost been three weeks, and the only homework we  have gotten is to study for our quizzes and tests.  We have only 9 people in this class, because we're sophmores, and have become some sort of guinea pigs for our school, who wants to test out this new class.  No one will tell us the real reason they offered this class, but I'm pretty sure that's it.

Christmas was tons of fun, but I cried a lot when my grandparents left.  I got Harvest Moon: Animal Parade.  I reallylikethatgame.  But, I played it so much, I rarely left my room, so I haven't played since school started, because I figured I would get so into it, I would procrastinate like never before...  So now, I'm playing LttP. 

My little brother learned how to walk.  He walks EVERYWHERE, and he's undeniably
cute.  I love him.  As naughty as he is.

I made some sushi this weekend.  It was a disastrous looking thing, but it tasted like the one I ate in Hawaii once.  (it tasted too much of mayonnaise.  Bleh)
I don't know if this counts as interesting, but, today's a snowday.  We had one last week too, and on monday, we didn't have school because of MLK day.  So...the only full week of school we have had yet was three weeks ago, the first one after the break.

Maybe something will happen today???