Writin' Time...

M'kay!  So I really really need to keep up with this story I'm writing... I don't want to put too much down about it yet, but it's going to be a kind of fantasy book, but definitely not just some romance thing.  But I've been obsessed with medivalish worlds, like Golden Sun, or like in the Legend of Zelda... But I also like modern things, like in Megaman, or today's world..  So I'm trying to somehow squish these ideas together into one.  There is going to be one main character, a girl who's a ginger, but others that are going to be just as important...  I'm thinking Olivia for the girl, but I don't really know if that would fit...  Olivia Crown... Hmm..

It's been awhile...hasn't it...

-_-"
That sums up what I'm feeling right now...because of my guilt for not updating!  But, in my defense, I have had limited computer usage lately, and for that reason I haven't been able to update my stuff.  In fact, I just uploaded a buttload of old drawing onto my deviantart.  Just saying. 
    Lots and lots has been going on...In January I went to Washington D.C.   It was amazing.  Life changing to see everything, especially since I haven't been in a big city before, excluding Honolulu...  Anyway, up there was where I got to experience winter this year... Since my town only had one day of snow and very few of actual cold.   Not much fun if you ask me....I like my seasons!  Anywho...  I am no longer with my boyfriend, he broke up with me, and I feel so great now that he's gone.  I have so much freedom, and can fill my time with video games and nerdy drawings, instead of thinking of him.   Doctor Who has been a large help, it kept me distracted when I was heartbroken, and basically got me out of the rut.  In fact, that would be my advice for heartbreak- keep yourself distracted!  Read, draw, watch tv, it all helps. 
   I'm out of time, but I just wanted to add that I'm trying to write a book again.  I feel that this one will be good!  I'm actually making a plot you see, instead of some nonsensical little story like before...  I'M SO EXCITED!!!!  

Whhhyyyyyy?!?

Soooo, it's exactly as the title says.*sigh*
And now for my Skyward Sword review....
Absolutely gorgeous, but (spoilers ahead!)
those stupid trials stressed me out, and the desert was also quite traumatizing. But, I loved Skyloft and its civilians.. Basically, the art and beauty makes up for its faults. Would I play the game again anytime soon? NO. Unless I'm just lollygagging or slicing butterflies with my sword. Or blowing birds off sidewalks. Ahem.

September 14th, 2011

I have been decyphering myself once again.  And thinking none stop.  I've have come across a few things in found though provoking...
What is the definition of a human?  We see in many different works, that aliens come to destroy, but let us live, because they come to understand our 'humaness' or something.  They learn emotion.  I often think that without our emotions, we wouldn't be human.  We have both good and evil in our souls, and we choose how to use it.  Of course, this is no new information, as I have heard it many times, but I still am curious on the true definition of humanity.  What are we really?  And our souls?  They have so much to do with us....I just want to know...
I realized that I choose to be depressed, because I refuse to hold hope.  If I have hope in something, I am most likely to get crushed, and that hope makes it all the more painful.  So being a pessimist is just a better option on somethings for me.  Mainly, relationships.  Which I also view different than most people.  I have a habit of loving people now.  Even if I'm not close to them, i love them.  They mean a lot to me.  And I've also realized that it causes me to have the permanent pain of heart break.  I hope I can learn differently...


Oh and I've really into Golden sun and doctor who again...  I just have this strong temptation to scream "DOCTOR!!!"  at random...

August 29, 2011

........Okay, so I haven't been writing much that's productive, and I'm probably not going to right now again. 
Schools started.  That's pretty nice, I guess, since I get to see my friends, even if my feelings get involved and cause more problems.  I've been taking st. John wort, but I just can't seem to cheer up right now.  It's worrisome.  And, I guess my last post was too harsh.  I haven't lashed out like that for at least a year. 
I really wish I could turn the clockback right now.  And live through somethings again.  Or at least try to mend them.  *sigh* whatever...  I need the sun to come out!  It would help my mood.  Gahh, i'm just complaining again, aren't i?  Poo.  Well, I'll try to find something interesting and post about it next time...



GOLDEN SUN FTW!!!

Nalg- I mean...Hello...

I worked late last night, and I decided to go to bed kinda earlier, *cough* 10:56 *cough*....for me this is early anyhow.  i slept at this time because I work today at nine and i wanted to get some need rest...WELL....that's kinda funny, because I had this awful nightmare today....I would write it down, but it would take to long, but I'll just say this....  I can still feel the man's finger on my temple, feeling my pulse before he kills me..  Anyway, i'm still NOT ready for school, and I really need to read that book for my english class.   But procrastination is just sooo tempting. 
I have learned my lesson.  There are a bunch of nasty perverts in this world, and I will try my best to avoid them.  They seem normal at first, then they decide to say some random, vulgar thing to test the grounds for more nasty comments.  This just happened to me, and, of course, I took action.  I don't put  up with crap like that.  No way in hell.  And I feel stalked too.  and I know he'll read this post.  Because his location showed up in my statistics today, that he's seen this page 12 times today or something.  all i can say is....LEAVE ME  ALONE!  Anyway, with people like this, ditch 'em.  In as many ways as possible.
*sigh*  
I got some new glasses, they are very square...and you know what?  No new naruto or bleach chapters this  week.  It's got me sooo down...  RUKKIIAAAAAAAAA!!!  *sob* 
In bleach, most of the characters are REALLY tall....it's lovely.  They make the world go 'round.

AHHHH!

I just can't take it!  S-schools closing in on me...and I'm entirely not ready!  I haven't read my book for english, and I'm sooo afraid of Chem.   And then, there's my fellow students...it's almost intimidating to see them after so long...
I had a boyfriend kinda this summer...it ended really bad.  It was online, something I don't recommend, because he lived so far away.
There's this guy at work I like, and it seems like he likes me, but I'm just not sure..and since I work parttime on random days, I don't work with him much.  Gahhhhhh....  I'm trying not to get my hopes up.
And of course, since schools starting again, and this results in me breaking out.  Bad. 
But, i must think positive!  Maybe I'll get a boyfriend this year, at school....that would make me happy..

SPOILER:  Rukia's BAAAACCKKKK!!!  I'm soo happy!  Shinigami goodness is sure to be on it's way!