Did I mention that Castiel is just... grandl? The character is just wonderfully written.
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Fable
I'm really excited to start writing... I know I say that in almost every post, but I actually have a pretty decent plot now, and have a nice collection of characters. I keep drawing them but not writing about them.... I guess I'm just excited to have something to write about and draw about as of late. I haven't had much inspiration lately, and I really don't feel like making any fan art unless it's of Zelda or Golden Sun. I need to have something that came solely from within, so it is completely mine. There's a certain possessiveness I have about my writing and art that makes me not want to make fan writings. I want to show off my ideas and abilities rather than someone else's. Well, tomorrow, I'll try to put up my pictures.
Did I mention that Castiel is just... grandl? The character is just wonderfully written.
Did I mention that Castiel is just... grandl? The character is just wonderfully written.
Saturday, January 5, 2013
January 4th (5th), 2013
So... Blogging. Things to write, that I'm not sure I should, but.. might as well get it out of the system, eh? Thankfully the school break has ended. I get tired of having so much free time to think, to dwell on so many things I wish I could change. I have a serious problem with that, I have so many things I want to change that I've done, so many things I wish I could redo, it hurts to think about. Don't get me wrong, I move on quickly, but I have a hard time envisioning the future. I've never been able to, I can't look ahead, and be hopeful. Part of this is because I don't like hope. Hope is a wonderful thing, but only if what you're hoping for is an assured part of life. Hoping for something that's never going to happen is either going to be a drag on your life, more than likely. Okay, sure, in some cases it could end up being the rope you hold on to for dear life, (Been there, done that) but I still don't think that's healthy. .... How did I end up talking about that?
{Relevant music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jNlIGDRkvQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRfuAukYTKg - This one, just because I like it.}
ANYHOW, school's back in session, and I'm reveling in physics once again, drinking in every delicious moment with my friends, and stuck in fear from the multitudes of policemen at my school. Ever since the almost shooting that happened right before break, there have been policemen everywhere! I like feeling safe, but I don't like the suspicious looks I get when I go to the vending machines. Makes me feel shady and fat. They have three dogs as well, which I suspect are drug dogs, and while I have never done drugs and plan on never doing them, I have the intense fear that one of the dogs is going to sniff me and they'll search me and find something. Irrational, but true. There is one major plus to this though... Yesterday, I saw this really, really, awesome dude quickly walking through the halls... He was wearing a suit (ermehgerd) and a black trench coat (all my yes). Needless to say, with the intense look on his face, and his wonderful fashion, he now has an admirer. If only there were more people that look as breathtakingly cool as he did. *Sigh*.
Toward the end of break, I kind of dismembered one of my friendships unintentionally due to my... inability to contain my emotions as much as I'd like. During my goodbye, I said something about never ever seeing him again, and I don't remember what else I said, but I imagine it was rude. He had been kind to me, but he really was leaving for an unknown long period of time, and the entire time I was with him, that's all I thought about. In that moment of parting, it might as well have been forever, that's certainly what it felt like. I hope I can fix things eventually. I've successfully crushed my own stupid feelings for the guy into the simple desire for friendship, rather than anything else. That's all I'm going to want later on anyway, so why not speed up the process, even if it doesn't exactly match up to my feelings now. And thus the uncomfortable process continues.
Mr. Trenchcoat has been a help, reminding me of all the awesome, unbelievably cool people I'm going to meet. Then there's.... Creeper. And my ex, who came by my work a few weeks back, however I was not there at the time. Whether that is fortunate or unfortunate I have yet to decide. Anyway, this guy I befriended about a month ago has been ambushing me in halls and during lunch, insisting upon making my company. He makes me feel awkward, and seems to like me, which, last year seemed fine with me, repulses me now. Today, one of my best friends warned me about something he apparently liked to do, and talked about a lot, and to find out the truth, I'm going to ask him on Monday. I'm sure that'll be fun. HAH.
Now, as far as Supernatural goes... It's just gets better! Castiel has completely won me over! I still love the Winchester brothers, but... he's just...so different! So, inhuman, it's absolutely splendid! I'm on season 5 still, but I'm enjoying every minutes of those friggn' long episodes. In fact, I think I'll go watch now.
{Relevant music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jNlIGDRkvQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRfuAukYTKg - This one, just because I like it.}
ANYHOW, school's back in session, and I'm reveling in physics once again, drinking in every delicious moment with my friends, and stuck in fear from the multitudes of policemen at my school. Ever since the almost shooting that happened right before break, there have been policemen everywhere! I like feeling safe, but I don't like the suspicious looks I get when I go to the vending machines. Makes me feel shady and fat. They have three dogs as well, which I suspect are drug dogs, and while I have never done drugs and plan on never doing them, I have the intense fear that one of the dogs is going to sniff me and they'll search me and find something. Irrational, but true. There is one major plus to this though... Yesterday, I saw this really, really, awesome dude quickly walking through the halls... He was wearing a suit (ermehgerd) and a black trench coat (all my yes). Needless to say, with the intense look on his face, and his wonderful fashion, he now has an admirer. If only there were more people that look as breathtakingly cool as he did. *Sigh*.
Toward the end of break, I kind of dismembered one of my friendships unintentionally due to my... inability to contain my emotions as much as I'd like. During my goodbye, I said something about never ever seeing him again, and I don't remember what else I said, but I imagine it was rude. He had been kind to me, but he really was leaving for an unknown long period of time, and the entire time I was with him, that's all I thought about. In that moment of parting, it might as well have been forever, that's certainly what it felt like. I hope I can fix things eventually. I've successfully crushed my own stupid feelings for the guy into the simple desire for friendship, rather than anything else. That's all I'm going to want later on anyway, so why not speed up the process, even if it doesn't exactly match up to my feelings now. And thus the uncomfortable process continues.
Mr. Trenchcoat has been a help, reminding me of all the awesome, unbelievably cool people I'm going to meet. Then there's.... Creeper. And my ex, who came by my work a few weeks back, however I was not there at the time. Whether that is fortunate or unfortunate I have yet to decide. Anyway, this guy I befriended about a month ago has been ambushing me in halls and during lunch, insisting upon making my company. He makes me feel awkward, and seems to like me, which, last year seemed fine with me, repulses me now. Today, one of my best friends warned me about something he apparently liked to do, and talked about a lot, and to find out the truth, I'm going to ask him on Monday. I'm sure that'll be fun. HAH.
Now, as far as Supernatural goes... It's just gets better! Castiel has completely won me over! I still love the Winchester brothers, but... he's just...so different! So, inhuman, it's absolutely splendid! I'm on season 5 still, but I'm enjoying every minutes of those friggn' long episodes. In fact, I think I'll go watch now.
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