Still not totally set on one idea....

So, I decided that in my story, the main character is going to move to Oklahoma, to the town where I live, because, I feel as though I will know what I am describing and writing about.  So it will be fictional, with some real stuff in there too.  I don't have much written yet... All I have has really nothing to do with the main plot or anything, but rather just an introduction scene setting the characters mood.  Or something along those lines...
....-"Yeah, you can clock out now..." I squeal inside with joy at my dismissal.  My boss gives me an amused look,yet her glassy eyes reveal a tired and dull mood.  "Thank you!" I manage to tell her before running out the massive glass doors of the ice cream shop.  Today was pay day, and I've made enough to finally buy the bike I've been saving up for.  It's white and sleek, and absolutely gorgeous.  I'll be able to go everywhere in my little suburbian town that exists within the real city limits.  I sprint down the sidewalk, past the nearely neon trees, the last rain making them bright as well as giving them a slightly tropical glow.  Wind bellows past me, giving me some resistance on my way.  By the time I arrive home, I've panting pretty hard, guess I'm out of shape...The ice cream I've been sneaking at work probably doesn't help, but it's just so yummy.. Anyway, my Auntie, old and frail, yet with her will of iron, is waiting for me at the door.  She has a nervous smile playing on her lips.  No.  This stops me in my tracks.  Auntie doesn't get nervous. EVER.  "Dear..." she starts.  I panic inside.  Oh no....Do I even want to know....? "We're moving."  "What?"  I ask incredulously, and it just gets better.. "To a town in Oklahoma."  "WHAT!?" I squeak, absolutely horrified, even if I know nothing about Oklahoma ,except that "wind comes sweeping down the plains", as the play says.

Yep, that's it... my intro..

Eheh, writer's block..

Yep.  My story has already hit a stand still.  I just don't know where to go with it right now....  Where it is right now is kinda boring- just the main character helping reconstruct places that were destroyed in a cataclysm.  Maybe putting some drama in there would help spice things up, or just building up the characters.  I guess I really should make a plot map, and see where I can go from there.  This just...isn't much fun.  My ideas are all stuck.  *sigh*
     On a much more pleasant note, school only has 18 days left for this year.  I'm nervous- this means the yearbook must be completed in 18 days, or perhaps even less.  And then there's finals and AP testing... ALL THAT is what scares me.  Yuck.
     Lastly, I'm trying to find a new job.  The one I've got isn't bad, I'm not really close to anyone I work with anymore( maybe that's a good thing... -_-")  but there's a certain boss that just doesn't like me.  And the job gets really stressful.  After everyday of work, when you go home with your arms, clothes, and face coated in ice cream, you don't like it much anymore.  It's kinda gross, because it looks like a layer of skin when you scratch it off.    I hate to sound like a complainer.  So I'll stop now. .   .   . . . .

Writin' Time...

M'kay!  So I really really need to keep up with this story I'm writing... I don't want to put too much down about it yet, but it's going to be a kind of fantasy book, but definitely not just some romance thing.  But I've been obsessed with medivalish worlds, like Golden Sun, or like in the Legend of Zelda... But I also like modern things, like in Megaman, or today's world..  So I'm trying to somehow squish these ideas together into one.  There is going to be one main character, a girl who's a ginger, but others that are going to be just as important...  I'm thinking Olivia for the girl, but I don't really know if that would fit...  Olivia Crown... Hmm..

It's been awhile...hasn't it...

-_-"
That sums up what I'm feeling right now...because of my guilt for not updating!  But, in my defense, I have had limited computer usage lately, and for that reason I haven't been able to update my stuff.  In fact, I just uploaded a buttload of old drawing onto my deviantart.  Just saying. 
    Lots and lots has been going on...In January I went to Washington D.C.   It was amazing.  Life changing to see everything, especially since I haven't been in a big city before, excluding Honolulu...  Anyway, up there was where I got to experience winter this year... Since my town only had one day of snow and very few of actual cold.   Not much fun if you ask me....I like my seasons!  Anywho...  I am no longer with my boyfriend, he broke up with me, and I feel so great now that he's gone.  I have so much freedom, and can fill my time with video games and nerdy drawings, instead of thinking of him.   Doctor Who has been a large help, it kept me distracted when I was heartbroken, and basically got me out of the rut.  In fact, that would be my advice for heartbreak- keep yourself distracted!  Read, draw, watch tv, it all helps. 
   I'm out of time, but I just wanted to add that I'm trying to write a book again.  I feel that this one will be good!  I'm actually making a plot you see, instead of some nonsensical little story like before...  I'M SO EXCITED!!!!  

Whhhyyyyyy?!?

Soooo, it's exactly as the title says.*sigh*
And now for my Skyward Sword review....
Absolutely gorgeous, but (spoilers ahead!)
those stupid trials stressed me out, and the desert was also quite traumatizing. But, I loved Skyloft and its civilians.. Basically, the art and beauty makes up for its faults. Would I play the game again anytime soon? NO. Unless I'm just lollygagging or slicing butterflies with my sword. Or blowing birds off sidewalks. Ahem.

September 14th, 2011

I have been decyphering myself once again.  And thinking none stop.  I've have come across a few things in found though provoking...
What is the definition of a human?  We see in many different works, that aliens come to destroy, but let us live, because they come to understand our 'humaness' or something.  They learn emotion.  I often think that without our emotions, we wouldn't be human.  We have both good and evil in our souls, and we choose how to use it.  Of course, this is no new information, as I have heard it many times, but I still am curious on the true definition of humanity.  What are we really?  And our souls?  They have so much to do with us....I just want to know...
I realized that I choose to be depressed, because I refuse to hold hope.  If I have hope in something, I am most likely to get crushed, and that hope makes it all the more painful.  So being a pessimist is just a better option on somethings for me.  Mainly, relationships.  Which I also view different than most people.  I have a habit of loving people now.  Even if I'm not close to them, i love them.  They mean a lot to me.  And I've also realized that it causes me to have the permanent pain of heart break.  I hope I can learn differently...


Oh and I've really into Golden sun and doctor who again...  I just have this strong temptation to scream "DOCTOR!!!"  at random...

August 29, 2011

........Okay, so I haven't been writing much that's productive, and I'm probably not going to right now again. 
Schools started.  That's pretty nice, I guess, since I get to see my friends, even if my feelings get involved and cause more problems.  I've been taking st. John wort, but I just can't seem to cheer up right now.  It's worrisome.  And, I guess my last post was too harsh.  I haven't lashed out like that for at least a year. 
I really wish I could turn the clockback right now.  And live through somethings again.  Or at least try to mend them.  *sigh* whatever...  I need the sun to come out!  It would help my mood.  Gahh, i'm just complaining again, aren't i?  Poo.  Well, I'll try to find something interesting and post about it next time...



GOLDEN SUN FTW!!!